cause as you said, the world's just about me and my mojitos.

and through these glass elements,
i will rid these problems,
one by one...

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

My dear memory vault,

Today's gonna be another short(minus the formalities) and quick entry.
This is probably due to the time and space constraint that I'm facing, and probably due to yet another bout of laziness that has just overwhelmed me.

Some elements in the policy are doing fine, but there are some that are not.
But in the history of policy-making, which policy has emerged to be a perfect one?
There is no such thing as perfect...

I've lost motivation.
I need to regain that motivation.
It is important.
Because it gives meaning to life.
It is painful, as time passes so quickly, yet so slowly:
About a year ago, this would be the period that I would be taking my GCE "A" levels.
Now, I also have seniors taking back their pink ICs, and soon they would be addressed as Mr. so-and-so.
Don't you feel happy for them?

The mindset has to change.
Yesterday training was good.
It has really been a long time since I've sweated so much.
It has really been a long time since I've felt this way.
It has really been a long time since my senses were triggered.
It has really been a long time...

Some people really upset me.
By being pretentious. By being something that you are actually not.
What's the point of faking it?
Sometimes I'm really that upset.
But the question would present itself to me:
What's the point of being upset with these people?

Now, it's time to find that meaning.

XOXO,
Marc

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 22:07
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

To my dear memory vault;
this is a quick entry.

Feeling: The intros of Creed

I feel like eating...
KFC...
Pizzas...
Or any other yummy things

Am I over-doing it again?
Guess I'm..
An apology?
You probably wouldn't care

Time apart would probably do me good
Do us good? maybe not
Feeling just like an unstable isotope

Again, I will fill up the missing pieces when there is time.
Or better still, when there is the motivation.
Till then.

Love,
Marc

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 22:51
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

=The IX=

Countdown: t-minus 8 weeks
Song ringing in my head:
Longing from the theme of Final Fantasy X by X Japan
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

kizutsuke atta kotoba mo
kasaneta namida mo
itsuka wa omoide ni naru yo
dakara...togireta melody
mune ni dakishimete ashita mo ikiru darou
anata ni aenakute mo

its time to change
that's what you told me
the reason for not doing so doesn't mean i'm holding on the past
it doesn't mean i can't let go of certain things
but i can understand your rationale
it sends a wrong signal to people sometimes
not that i really care what do others think
but sometimes we've to rectify certain things that might not necessarily concern us
i have the same thought as you
it's just that
we don't have to get something just for the sake of getting it
why don't we just wait and see and keep our options open
when we see something that catches our eye
then we get it

Sing without you
I'll sing without you
Can't you feel my heart
Falling through the rain

I sing without you
I'll sing without you
Can't you hold my tears
Cause still I love you

On the planet Terra, after finding out his purpose and his past from his master Garland, Zidane felt lost. The purpose of his existence was to destroy his very own friends, the friends whom gave him the reason to fight for. Waking up for a slumber after a spell casted by Garland, all Zidane wanted to do was to run. Run away from everything. On his way out, he met Freya, Eiko and Vivi(Aramarant just stood at the side), whom insisted that he stayed back to rest because Zidane couldn't even walk properly, he was staggering and swaying as he walked on.
"Aren't you guys trouble enough? Worse than kids!", Zidane barked at them.
".....", was their reply.
Zidane continued on, and this time straight away Quina and Captain Steiner encounted a beast. They were encountering difficulties because they weren't that highly skilled yet. Zidane stepped in, and made easy work out of that beast. They again asked Zidane to stay, because they were all inter-dependent.
Again Zidane shouted, "Just leave me alone!".
He proceeded on to the next room. This time he met with a more vicious monster. A fight was inevitable. It seemed that Zidane would win again, until the monster casted a spell. A spell that left him on the brink of death. 1 HP left. Another physical attack would be life-threatening.
At this moment, he felt his strength coming back again. His wounds were healing and he was back to his full heatlh: 3284 HP. He turned around and looked in astonishment, it was Dagger!
She said, "I see that you require some help, let's kill this monster together."
Zidane gave a nod, and gave the monster another physical attack which banished it. Dagger told Zidane, "All this while you were protecting us. All you thought of was to help others. But what you failed to notice was there whilst you were doing so, we were watching your back. You were watching our back and we were watching yours. Now that you need help, let us help you. We are friends right?".

to be continued...

I can't face that thought of being alone
I sing for the song still carries on
mune ni dakishimete omoi o utawasete
koe ni naranakute mo

Sing without you
I'll sing without you
Can't you feel my pain
There's nothing I can do

Sometimes I wonder what if we met on streets
Face to face.
What would you do?
What would I do?
There are a million things that we can say
that we can promise
but it's the actions that speak for themselves

I still have a longing for your memory
kizutsuku dake demo
kokoro o tsutaetai yo

ima wa...hitori ni shinai de
furi sosogu ame ni niware sou na yume
ashita mo kanaderu kara

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 19:00
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Monday, October 23, 2006

=The Piano=

Countdown: t-minus 8 weeks 2days
Song ringing in my head:
Pieces from the album Chuck by Sum41
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

I've things to say.
But being the lazy me who doesn't do things unless there are carrots involved(unless some pretty girl agrees to go out with me on a date if this entry is finished),* I shall leave this entry to be completed some other day when my fingers feel like typing my thoughts out. Till then I'll leave the following to entertain you readers.

*(ah Marcus you really love to dream alot eh?)

You Are An ISFP

The Artist

You are a gifted artist or musician (though your talents may be dormant right now).
You enjoy spending your free time in nature, and you are good with animals and children.
Simply put, you enjoy bueaty in all its forms and live for the simple pleasures in life.
Gentle, sensitive, and compassionate - you are good at recognizing people's unspoken needs.

You would make a good veterinarian, pediatrician, or composer.

What's Your Personality Type?

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 02:01
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Friday, October 20, 2006

=The Triple Chocolate Fudge=

Countdown: t-minus 8 weeks 5 days
Song ringing in my head:
When I'm Gone from the album Away From The Sun by 3 Doors Down
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

There's another world inside of me
That you may never see
There's secrets in this life
That I can hide
Somewhere in this darkness
There's a light that I can't find
Maybe it's too far away
Or maybe I'm just blind

It's been quite some time since I last entered my memories
To be precise I've kinda forgotten the existence of this place
I must be aging..

When your education x-ray cannot see under my skin
I won't tell you a damn thing that I could not tell my friends.
Now roaming through this darkness,
I'm alive but I'm alone
Part of me is fighting this
but part of me is gone

Somethings have changed during my absence
Somethings have not
As usual
Nothing out of the blue
Finally another verdict has been given out
I really don't know if it's better if it was a "No." or "I'm sorry I can't because ......"
Or would it be better if the plan wasn't initiated in the first place?
Please don't say that I'm questioning your integrity
you can't blame me either
there will be alot of things going in my mind
possibilities forming
solutions formulating
of course either of which would be useless at this juncture
so i guess i'm too late again eh?
can't really blame anyone else again i guess
probably all the time used in plucking petals off flowers
tossing coins
throwing dices
could have been put to better use
so what's the last i can say?
i'll see you there on the day itself
if the world still hold its word

So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
And love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
Wants to be the one you wanted me to be
I'll never let you down
Even if I could
Give up everything
If only for your good
So hold me when I'm here
Love me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
You won't always be there
So love me when I'm gone

So love me when I'm gone.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 21:05
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