cause as you said, the world's just about me and my mojitos.

and through these glass elements,
i will rid these problems,
one by one...

Monday, June 30, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part IX: The Diagnosis=
LSS:
-play mode set on shuffle-

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Virgin Mojito
Shutter count: 13834
Countdown : t-plus approx. 13 days 03 hrs

and i think i know what's the bigger problem

which gives a bigger headache;

how to overcome it!!!

RPM's getting higher by the moment

last measure was ninety

somehow i seem to get obsessed with these numbers each day

no good, mine's too high.

really, this game is getting more and more interesting

the excitement builds up everyday

thanks for the song

i really can't help but listen to it everyday

i wonder what will happen if i stop listening to it one day

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 01:00
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Friday, June 27, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part VIII: The Rear View Mirror=
LSS:
-play mode set on shuffle-

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Virgin Mojito
Shutter count: 13685
Countdown : t-plus approx. 11 days 01 hrs

talked to AN today

somehow i got this feeling that I would have talked to one of them

but i was surprised that i got approached first

though i already knew what was coming out

and it's so weird

because i thought being at that age

people would get more mature

and less immature problems would appear

i think we were both shocked that somehow we could see our problems in each other

i think really, maybe it isn't a problem of mine anymore

i played according to the rules, did as what you told me to

and you still want more?

the only thing that i should do now, is damage control; and i believe it's the right thing

AN asked the killer question

but, i couldn't really find the appropriate answer

probably because i couldn't find the reason anymore, and besides you don't have the time

nevertheless, i appreciate the talk

i would have liked to ask more, and i would have liked to discuss more now, but due to the lack of ATP in my body, i shall attempt to catch some sleep, right now.

Oh, I'm into you and

Girl no one else would do

With every kiss and every hug

You make me fall in love

And now I know I can't be the only one

I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight

With the love of their life who feel

What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh

With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Yeah

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 23:35
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Thursday, June 26, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part VII: The Haunt=
LSS:
-play mode set on shuffle-

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Virgin Mojito
Shutter count: 13681
Countdown : t-plus approx. 10 days 00 hrs

i thought everything was for the better

i thought i still stood a chance though it's only 3 weeks away

but today was more than a disappointment

yes there're up and downs, but why is it seem like a downhill always

it's making me rethink time and time again, why am i doing this?

why am i torturing myself?

sometimes we know we've been there done there, but why is it always so difficult to climb the same mountain?

or am i simply having unrealistic expectations?

but they don't know what am i seeing.
i see this younger guy with short hair whose back looks very familiar, and he spots a white-purple boat...

I found your picture in my wallet

Still got your sweater in my closet

I'll bring'em by

Maybe tonight

And people askin' how I'm doin'

But every question still has you in

I say I'm fine

And i never think about you

but you're always on my mind

Been playing all the songs you hated

I called a girl I almost dated

She's not the one

But I'm having fun

And I'm better off without you

And I think it's what I want <-- Did I have a choice?

Even if it takes forever

I'll get my shit together

I've been doing so much better

I'm getting over you

I'm getting over you most of the time

If I say it like I mean it

Then maybe I'll believe it like it's true

I'm getting over you

Believe is strong. Believe is powerful.
Have faith. Have true faith.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 21:29
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Wednesday, June 25, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part VII: The Advantages Of Concentration=
LSS:
-play mode set on shuffle-

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Mojito
Shutter count: 13681
Countdown : t-plus approx. 8 days 15 hrs

i knew O2 debt had to be caught up with

but i didn't know sleeping debt was the same!

but who's complaining?

for sleep's the best luxury one can ever enjoy!

these days i'm getting sick, tired, weary of dealing people

whom are always complaining, complaining and complaining

when an inch is given to you, you demand a foot
i do understand your viewpoint

but can you perhaps just take a minute or more to try to be more understanding as well?

and trust me; i definitely know more than you do, because i have been to both ends, been there done that, so don't crap around with me

sometimes you really don't know how lucky you're

they say that you only know it's worth when you lose it, but i highly doubt it in this case

oh wells, time to concentrate, for energy in the world is getting more scarce by the second.

You seem to find the dark when everything is bright.

You look for all that's wrong instead of all that's right.

Does it feel good to you to rain on my parade?

You never say a word unless it's to complain.

It's driving me insane...

Look what surrounds you now more than you've ever dreamed.

Have you forgotten just how hard it used to be?

So what's it going to take for you to realize

It all could go away in one blink of an eye?

It happens all the time...

If I Were You,

holding the world right in my hands,

the first thing I'd do,

is thank the stars above,

for the ones I love,

take a breath and enjoy the view,

live the life that I wanted to.

If I Were You...

that's why you are you, and I am I.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 13:06
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Monday, June 23, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part VI: Went There As Two, Came Back As One=
LSS:
Your Love Is A Lie from the self-titled album by Simple Plan

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Mojito
Shutter count: 13681
Countdown : t-plus approx. 7 days 2 hrs

i wouldn't be surprised

there are only 60 seconds in 1 minute

60 minutes in 1 hour

24 hours a day

7 days a week

365 days a year

yet, you want everything

i believe i've did what i could
including what happens after
trying to play to the rules as closely as i can

but what's the point when i get NO respect

i'm really tired of saying anymore

Oh no, I've said too much

I haven't said enough

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 23:47
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Sunday, June 22, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part V: The Second Wind=
LSS:
-play mode set on shuffle-

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Sugarcane juice
Shutter count: 13681
Countdown : t-plus approx. 144 hrs

Times like this, I really wish they never end. Thanks very much guys!

At least I can proudly say to myself, and I know I'm not lying to anybody.
Truly, these are free acts of happiness, and I'm not doing this to please everybody, or anybody.
Now the only worry on my mind, will this be short-lived?
Am I thinking too much again?

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 22:34
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Saturday, June 21, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part IV: The Night Like This=
LSS:
-play mode set on shuffle-

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Sugarcane juice
Shutter count: 13569
Countdown : t-plus approx. 99 hrs

Bah. I wonder when I'll stop all these.

Nonsense, stupidity, whatever you call it.

Anyways my dear friends, if I haven't told you before, you guys are simply the best in the world.

Thanks so much for staying by me through the darkest hours of my life, I really appreciate it.

But sometimes there are only somethings in which I've to overcome myself.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 01:18
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Friday, June 20, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part III: The Vacuum=
LSS:
Violet Hill from the album Viva La Vida by Coldplay

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
a new creation
Shutter count: 13569
Countdown : t-plus approx. 80 hrs

Was a long and dark ~~December~~ June

From the rooftops I remember

There was snow

White snow

Clearly I remember

From the windows they were watching

While we froze down below

When the future's architectured

By a carnival of idiots on show

You'd better lie low

Was a long and dark ~~December~~ June

When the banks became cathedrals

And the fog

Became God

Priests clutched onto bibles

And went out to fit their rifles

And the cross was held aloft

Bury me in honor

When i'm dead and hit the ground

A love back home unfolds

I don't want to be a soldier

With the captain of some sinking ship

With snow, far below

I took my love down to violet hill

There we sat in snow

All that time she was silent still

So if you love me

Why'd you let me go?

So if you love me

Won't you let me know?

If you love me,

Won't you let me ~~know~~ go?

You may have won yesterday, you may win today, but that does not mean you will win for the tomorrows to come.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 06:46
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Tuesday, June 17, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part II: The Roadmap=
LSS:
Scarborough Fair from the album The Simon And Garfunkel Collection by Simon And Garfunkel

Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Sleeping potion
Shutter count: 13461
Countdown : t-plus approx. 16 hrs

Photo taken in Hungary, Day 5. Photo was discovered after recovery from the 250.

looking back, i think i've wasted alot of time.
starting from after JC2 till now.
and i realised, during this period of time, I haven't been exactly happy
happy in the way that how i was knew by others
i want to regain that
i want to show to others again, that we humans, can be really truly happy, and life is beautiful and things will be optimistic

however, i think all is not lost, yet.
there is still time i hope
although i've lost the headstart, there's still the remaining part of the race to go
and it's a long long way
so anybody can be the winner

goodie goodie, let's get down to work
and start reviving all the shelved projects

get ready for a change. get ready for a refreSHING change! (:

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 14:21
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=The Road To Recovery; Part I: The Insomniac=
LSS:
Tired Of Being Sorry from the album Insomniac by Enrique Iglesias
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Sleeping potion
Shutter count: 13461
Countdown : t-plus approx. 5 hrs

My 2 huge loves of the world: SLEEP and FOOD
i can't have either of them
what the hell is going on?

-guesswho?- says :
come on people dont really live for relationshipsss

*Marc=) Tired Of Being Sorry +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says :
i know
*Marc=) Tired Of Being Sorry +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says :
i don't
*Marc=) Tired Of Being Sorry +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says :
I NEVER USED TO BE LIKE THAT

just let me be a happy single
let me relieve the old days
where i really don't give a damn about anything

I don't know why
You want to follow me tonight
When in the rest of the world
With you whom I've crossed and I've quarreled
Lets me down so
For a thousand reasons that I know
To share forever the unrest
With all the demons I possess
Beneath the silver moon

Maybe you were right
But baby I was lonely
I don't want to fight
I'm tired of being sorry
I'm standing in the street
Crying out for you
No one sees me
But the silver moon

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 03:01
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=The End Is Just Another Beginning; Part XI: The Checkmate=
LSS:
Warwick Avenue from the album Rockferry by Duffy
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Doing martinis
Shutter count: 13461
Countdown : t-plus approx. 1-2 hrs

case closed.

i wonder what's next?
but i think it's really not wise to think anymore.

my passion has once again taken a toll on me, this time on one of my loved ones
am i really asking for too much?
now i just can't help thinking what did i do wrong?
was i that bad as you mentioned?
if so is this what i deserve?

something i didn't really like was the interference of some external factor.
like if you were so smart you would have probably done much better yourself.
to think i thought highly of you, you're another disappointment really, but then again not that we were close in the first place

sometimes when things really go wrong, isn't the first question: why does it has to be me?
why me, of all people?

i just hope that i don't repeat the same mistakes
was i really that selfish?
was i really that un-loving?
was i really that inconsiderate?
was i really that mean?
was i really that.....

my dear thoughts, enough is enough

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Meet me by the entrance of the tube
We can talk things over little time
But promise me you wont stand by the light

When I get to Warwick Avenue
Please draw the past and be true
Don’t say we’re okay
Just because I’m here
You hurt me bad but I won't shed a tear

I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
Outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

When I get to Warwick Avenue
We’ll spend an hour but no more than two
Our only chance to speak once more
I showed you answers, now here’s the door

When I get to Warwick Avenue
I’ll tell you baby there we’re through

Cause I’m leaving you for the last time baby
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
And I’ve been confused
An outta my mind lately
You think you’re loving,
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me.

All the days spent together
I wish for better,
And I didn’t want the train to come
Now it’s departed, I’m broken hearted
Seems like we never started
All those days spent together
When I wished for better
And I didn’t want the train to come.
No, no.

You think you’re loving
But you don’t love me
I want to be free, baby
You’ve hurt me
You don’t love me
I want to be free
Baby you’ve hurt me

Time for my long deserved break

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 00:00
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Monday, June 16, 2008

=The End Is Just Another Beginning; Part X: The Stalemate=
LSS:
-will be revealed at a later time-
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Doing martinis
Shutter count: 13454
Countdown : t-plus approx. 3 hrs

i can't eat properly
i can't sleep properly
and i seriously don't feel like doing anything

even though nothing happened
in a way i wished something happened
this is like worse than the worst

i really need to relax
let loose

and although i expected that my advice would fall on deaf ears
somehow AGAIN, YET FREAKING AGAIN, i had some hope it would have an effect
but no
i'm again disappointed
this is very very saddening

ok maybe after a shower i will try to read the pile of "For Action" letters and things to be done that my mum has arranged for me
hopefully the data can be recovered from the 250
and maybe time for pp-ing ALL my photos
good luck. 5000+, with a Pentium 4 3.0AGhz is really no joke.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 15:51
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=The End Is Just Another Beginning; Part IX: The Zero Sum Game=
LSS:
-will be revealed at a later time-
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Doing martinis
Shutter count: 13454
Countdown : t-minus approx. 12hrs

-guesswho?- says (12:50 AM):
she's been emo all the timne your were gone

*Marc=) Scars +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says (12:50 AM):
so when i'm emo in hungary no one can see

-

*Marc=) Scars +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says (12:56 AM):
it's so funny
*Marc=) Scars +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says (12:56 AM):
i'm all alone in hungary
*Marc=) Scars +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says (12:57 AM):
and no one emphatises with me
*Marc=) Scars +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says (12:57 AM):
i sacrificed time spent with my family, friends to do this
*Marc=) Scars +themission: Marcoustics Inc. -designed to provoke. says (12:57 AM):
and this is what i get

haha. what's new?
don't worry, i'll blame no one, because this is the path i chose to walk.
i'm not posting all these to gain your sympathy
i'm telling you, because i thought you just needed to know.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 00:55
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Sunday, June 15, 2008

=The End Is Just Another Beginning; Part VIII: The Perfect Getaway ; Part XXII: When All Sweet Dreams Come To An End=
LSS:
-will be revealed at a later time-
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Sparkling Water
Shutter count: 13261
Countdown : t-minus approx. 36hrs

as expected
coming back changed nothing
HR isn't as normal since 2 days ago
jetlagged?
can be...

i've the perfect song that sums up everything i'm feeling now
but for fear of being misunderstood and ruining things, i will post it at a later date

[updated 0339hrs]

mlys: what if we not meet again? can we do that? because half of me wants to see you and the other half of me is so afraid to see you again. i really don't know what to do.

[updated 0420hrs]

i'll deal with you like a mature person
sorry don't blame me for the way I'm now, this is the result
i lost control yes, but no more.
no more.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 00:03
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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

=The End Is Just Another Beginning; Part VII: The Perfect Getaway ; Part XXI: The Time When Dreams Will Just Remain As Dreams=
LSS:
B Boy Baby from the album Real Girl by Mutya Buena featuring Amy Winehouse
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Home-made Mojito
Shutter count: 12270 (then)

[post updated]

The happiness of those who want to be popular depends on others; the happiness of those who seek pleasure fluctuates with moods outside their control; but the happiness of the wise grows out of their own free acts.

- Marcus Aurelius

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 20:36
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Monday, June 02, 2008

=The End Is Just Another Beginning; Part X: The Perfect Getaway ; Part XXIV: The Never-ending Lies That Your Mum Warned You About=
LSS:
Craving for the random songs by VH1 MTV Music Channel (I want to watch. ): )
Cocktail that I'm craving now:
Home-made Mojito
Shutter count: 12390

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XAbcgmwq3EU

I fall asleep by the telephone

It's two o'clock and I'm waiting up alone
Tell me, where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss but it just don't feel the same
Cause I can feel that you're gone
I can't bite my tongue forever, while you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories, but don't take me for a fool

You can tell me that there's nobody else
You can tell me that you're home by yourself
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
It's nothing but a lie

At this point what more can I say?
Disappointment, is just a gross understatement.

Throw away all the good and positive thoughts I have, I don't need them anymore.

4 hours of non-stop of RHCP, made me miss Floris so so so much, that I wanted to fly back Singapore secretly and then come back here.
And RHCP reminds me of Shing of course, (hey I'm not hard *laughs at FB and D*), with his ownage bass skills.
Makes me want to prac hard again, for the love of my life.

And I will say it for one more time if you still don't get it, I absolutely hate being lied to.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 19:55
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