cause as you said, the world's just about me and my mojitos.

and through these glass elements,
i will rid these problems,
one by one...

Sunday, August 31, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part XXVII: The Pre-Flop=
LSS:
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Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

Shutter count: 16320
Countdown : t-plus approx. 75 days 09 hrs

no
i'm still not happy
because of this, this and this.

it's good that we're getting back the feeling
let's get it going, and going, and going...

however, i feel that the strategies have to clearly laid out and directed

and don't you see that YOU don't really have a choice?
don't come and tell me you know what to do, because i don't think you really do.
don't come and tell me that your old enough, because you're not.
did i do the right thing?
shld i've just closed and locked those doors, so they wouldn't have a chance of being opened.
you say it's not my fault, then whose is it!
why does it have to be me?
why me!

bah. can't wait for it to arrive.

i still have 293492245345 photos that i want to pp!
seemed to have a good catch at the dnd.

arghs. can't wait to do up my workplace.

point to note. seems like i'm starting to blog short sentences.

short and sweet.

it's the way to go.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 13:02
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Tuesday, August 26, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part XXVI: The Call=
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Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

Shutter count: 16320
Countdown : t-plus approx. 70 days 14 hrs

so after knowing, what changes?
nothing.
sometimes, we're better off not knowing.
this i said, for probably the 1001th time.

wait a minute, did you just raise the stakes?
cool. from everything to nothing. well done.

too clouded. have alot of things to say when i'm not on blogger.com
but don't feel like blogging as i'm typing into this screen.

freaking @#)$@#$.
can't believe this happened for 2 days in a row.
what the hell.
sleep sleep sleep somemore. see if it does you any good.
CRAP.
IF WE WANT TO HIT OUR TARGETS WE HAVE TO DO MUCH BETTER THAN THIS.
AND I MEAN MUCH BETTER.
bah, i feel sleepy again. :S

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 12:06
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Monday, August 25, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part XXV: The Grey Goose=
LSS:
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Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

Shutter count: 15898 (incorrect at time of publication)
Countdown : t-plus approx. 69 days 4 hrs

a perfect mix...
that's what dy/dx it from the rest doesn't it?
or is it because of branding?
whatever, all i know is i'm enjoying it right now.
not too strong, just right.

this is so not going the way i would ideally want it to be
why?
i would really want to not have any wishful thinking
but i can't help it

in the right frame of mind to blog?
properly not.
oh wells. the next time then. haha. looks like i can never find a good time to pin down these thoughts.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 02:46
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Tuesday, August 19, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part XXIV: The Bizarre Love Triangle=
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Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

Shutter count: 15898
Countdown : t-plus approx. 64 days 1 hrs

tired...

even when a buffet is presented in front of you
you might still end up hungry
because everything that is offered might not be suitable for your taste

and oh did i mention i hate being made use of?
):

gonna edit this post later. for sure.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 23:40
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Sunday, August 10, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part XXIII: The Fundamental Theorem=
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Cocktail that I'm craving now:
n/a

Shutter count: 15628 (inaccurate at time of publication)
Countdown : t-plus approx. 61 days 6 hrs

i really do not know how to describe it

pure stupidity or what?

what was i thinking in the first place

i feel so ashamed in a way
was i that obvious?

must have been a real fool wasn't i?

at least now i know what to do

seems painful, but knowing what's the right thing to do is more important

at times to the above statement, that is

to be more precise, at the correct time

a game which lasted till seven in the morning

made a few mistakes here and there

some of which were costly

costly mistakes are the ones that get you down, and no matter how hard you might try to reverse the situation, ultimately they may still be the cause of your failure

chilling out to the sounds of del mar now
because le dreamweaver ran out of battery whilst transferring 500+ photos out
argh, of some of which i wanted to send out like now.

must have been pretty angsty the previous days was i?
couldn't help it
because sometimes i can't help feeling responsible for the way things are now
although we know very well at such times we've totally no control for the way they are turning out
but still...

sometimes, don't you wonder what's the point of having the best?
what good would it do, even if you had the best?
would you be able to appreciate its intrinsic value?
would you be able to not take it for granted?
would you be able to treat it as well as it/he/she treats you?
would you be able...?
would the world be better off if someone who deserves it better than you do had your "best" instead?
but yet again, what good would it do even if i had the answers to this?

more plans are being set in motion
i should be happy instead
on the other hand i'm not really so
speed is too slow
more discipline is definitely needed
looks like we need to increase the Force whilst decreasing the area

it's a double edged sword
it can be considered as both an advantage and disadvantage
it all depends on how we put it to use
stop talking; action now please.

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 16:31
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Thursday, August 07, 2008

=The Road To Recovery; Part XXI: The Reverse: What Went Down; MUST Go Up=
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Cocktail that I'm craving now:
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Shutter count: 14879 (incorrect at time of publication)
Countdown : t-plus approx. 51 days 10 hrs

When I was young I knew everything
And she a punk who rarely ever took advice
Now I'm guilt stricken, sobbin' with my head on the floor
Stop a Baby's Breath and a shoe full of rice, no...

was supposed to store these thoughts as i go along

but the days really seem to pass by so quickly
trying to sincerely new friendships forged randomly over the weekswhilst attempting not to neglect the strong ones and keeping track of the ones leaving the country
but no, i've only twenty four hours a day, and i can only be at one place at a time.

last wed was one of the most wicked sick (read, AWESOME) weds ever.

seems like we've found the optimal company, haven't we?

and no dear, it doesn't include you! unfortunately!

am really proud of you! i'm quite surprised you managed to pick up the moves, despite the amt of times we went tog!

it was a great evening to start with, with nice music to start 2 hours before, and to talk comfortably with great company is simply, what more can i ask for?!

i really didn't know you had a similar history to me, we learn something new about each other everyday!

My best friend took a week's vacation to forget her
His girl took a week's worth of valium and slept
And now he's guilt stricken sobbin' with his head on the floor
Thinks about her now and how he never really wept he says

i wonder if i really portray a different image as to what i'm?

i believe, and do correct me if i'm wrong, that
i'm a person who likes more of peace and serenity, instead of the RA-RA me you see outside

and i wonder, do i seem like a flirt to you guys?

i used not to care about the impression that i give others; do i still do the same?

sometimes i feel the more i tell things, the more "disillusioned" you become
like you never knew i would do such things

i feel that the person i get angry with the most is, myself.

i really hate myself at times. really really hate myself.
i wish i wasn't like that.

but i can't undo the things i've already done.

so i guess there's the only obvious solution left: damage control.

and if you read this blog, you probably are one of them whom i want you to know what's going on with my life, ok maybe those parts that are relevant to you

i really don't want to disappoint you

why? simply because, i know i'm not such a person.

words are not enough, i will ensure my actions prove to you as such

life's in a disequilibrium

total chaos everywhere

but i think i'm glad to announce that things will be sorting themselves out from now onwards.

ok hopefully so.

and as i've been saying, the least i want now is more trouble.

enough is enough, i've been tired enduring trouble

and for the record, NO, i do not like such an 'exciting' life, at least maybe i'm growing tired of it

moving on to fun,

fun can only be more fun if there's the opposite to it.

hard work.

time to settle down i guess, i definitely prefer an organised life compared to an ad-hoc one

We've tried to wash our hands of all of this

We never talk of our lack in relationships

And how we're guilt stricken sobbin' with our heads on the floor

We fell through the ice when we tried not to slip, we'd say

and i think you're no longer eligible to be my opponent. go away. we now belong to different leagues. you win at your games, i win at mine. let's draw a clear line. but i'm just glad that i'm doing a great job handling this matter. yay kudos.

i don't know what the hell i'm doing, but the last thing i want is for you to misinterpret

really crazy things i've done haven't i?

new first times

but i admit it was really fun/crazy, whatever you call it

I can't be held responsible
'Cause she was touching her face
And I won't be held responsible
She fell in love in the first place

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and we'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe we'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

and tell me what should i do with you? i feel that this period is the most dangerous of them all.

i don't want you to be a filler
and neither do i want to be a substitute

do you mean the things you say?

i wonder, what's going through your mind now?

and don't be ): really.

guess it's a hard time for you too, but tough times don't last!

I wonder how

I wonder why

Yesterday you told me about the blue blue sky

And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon tree

I'm turning my head up and down

I'm turning turning turning turning turning around

And all that I can see is just another lemon tree

making music is good

so so so good

really love doing the things that i love doing!

woohoo! although i know i kinda suck at it...

we shall see if we can squeeze in a few lessons here and there...

but first first! let's see if we can get those assignments,

then grace can have her martinis.

but then ah, someone already had her martini and steak sandwich worrrrrrrr. boo.

what shall i do abt fridays? ):

Marc=) is ~~thinking of how can he make you happier~~ confident that we'll get there; someday... at 09:21
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